Friday

Today is going to be amazing. I am going to go out riding with one of my closest friends who has been going through a couple rough situations lately. Even if she doesn't want to go out, I'm going to force her to. She completely deserves to have the best time of her life today, and I am going to try my absolute best to do that for her. Today will be great no matter what.

YES

My brother Michael comes home in nine more days. Michael is like my absolute best friend. I have way more positive memories than bad memories with that guy. I look up to Michael a lot when it comes to social skills. He reminds me to be outgoing and never shy. When you have the chance to speak or tell a joke, go for it. Michael has really helped me grow my confidence up throughout my life and is an outstanding brother. Coincidentally, he comes home on my birthday, which is amazing. I can't wait to see him again.

Goals

If you sit somewhere quietly dreaming, how do you expect to reach your goals? Setting goals is one thing, actually physically and emotionally doing something is another. Reaching your goals require moving yourself forward. I'm not saying you should randomly change something huge in your life out of nowhere. You could take baby steps.

Baby steps move you further than sitting in the dark, feeling insecure, and wondering if you have any skills. That makes you frustrated and makes you grow doubt upon yourself. That gets you nowhere. Do you think Stephen Curry just woke up one morning and miraculously became one of the best basketball players in the NBA? No, he practiced, stayed committed, and did not give up. He mentally and physically built himself up, and convinced himself that he could do ALL things. 

I think Steph Curry is a great source of inspiration. There is a world full of people and things to get inspiration from. Surrounding yourself with these things and people give you better vibes. Participating in more things, talking to more people, basically just keeping yourself occupied erases the negative things from your mind. These types of things help you reach your goals.

Cotard Delusion

Cotard Delusion is a psychiatric disorder in which a person has the delusional belief that they are dead, has lost internal organs, blood, body parts, or believing that they have no soul. It is a relatively rare disorder. Mostly reported with patients that has also been diagnosed with brain damage, psychotic disorders, and mood disorders. Different individualized treatments and medications help extinguish the disorder. I think Cotard Delusion is one of the most interesting and intense disorders that I have read about so far. Sometimes I am in total disbelief with the cases. I totally do not recommend reading about it if you are sensitive to this kind of subject, but if you find it as interesting as I do then I definitely recommend it.

Alien Hand Syndrome

I have been educating myself lately on different types of disorders. Some of them are pretty messed up. Such as Alien Hand Syndrome. Alien Hand Syndrome (AHS) is a very rare neurological disorder. Neurological Disorders are diseases in the brain, spine, and the nerves that connect to them. Extreme symtoms of AHS is self inflicted choking or punching, and unintentionally stuffing food in your own mouth. AHS was discovered in 1909, there has only been 40 to 50 cases of the disorder since then.

Seriously Though

It is honestly so easy to feel happy after not caring about someone you really cared about. It is super hard moving on, but once you moved on you ask yourself, "Why didn't I just do this in the beginning?" Us humans can look right through someones flaws to the point where we do not realize how sad they actually made us. It is like we could look in the mirror and know for a fact that we are sad, and act like we deserve it, being totally blinded by the person who is making you feel this way. Acting like that person makes our lives better. How do you expect to build up your happiness with someone who has tore it down to the point where you just do not want to try anymore? You don't. We're all still living our lives. We have so much more coming towards us, so I suggest, do not let someone get in the way of your happiness. It is unnecessary for a person to waste their time to tear you down, while you listen, while you could have been going out and getting some ice cream. We need to care about ourselves too, because in all reality, if you don't care about yourself, then who is?

Friday

I am going to be completely honest, most of the people who I keep in contact with are depressed. I really do want to help. I want to be there for all of them, make them feel good about themselves, and make them laugh and positive stuff like that. But sometimes I want to tell the truth. I feel like 99% of the time these people are just having a bad day, claiming that they have severe depression, and they need attention. A lot of my friends, including myself, are still young and are going to experience new things in life. We have a lot more coming towards us, and I just find it silly that we are focused on one thing that is breaking us down, when we could be focusing on the many things that bring us up. We could have it worse, a lot of us need to start appreciating the things and people we have in life.